I forgot to add, after being all depressed and such today, I forced myself to find and try a new sitter so I can work and not have to rely on his family. I did it. Success. New sitter found, and dropped the baby off for 2 hours! Got my nails "did", and chatted with my girlfriends on the phone. I can survive on my own. If that's how it ends up, I must know I can do it. I can.